Friday, December 20, 2019

Coping at Christmas

Dear Darlings, 

It’s been 3 months since I looked at my blog and it’s like I’ve blinked and Christmas is here. A time which I throughly enjoyed when I was younger but now, it’s a completely different story. Ever since my diagnosis of mental health problems, I’ve found Christmas more and more difficult to face as the years went on, more worry, dread, pressure and I have became completely overwhelmed with this. The main one being that I put so much stress on myself to be happy, just like everyone seems to be doing because its “the festive period” so I want to look joyous, excited and do so many things so I can meet other people’s expectations of happiness because of this time of the year. 

You don’t give yourself a break, you’re rushed off your feet and it’s the worst for social anxiety because there’s so many parties, social events and in general just seeing family and friends. It can be extremely tough. You over commit yourself to do things, to get a good enough of sense of what it feels like to just let go and have fun like those around you. But then you spiral into a guilt absorbed mindset, beating yourself up because you think you’ve let everyone down, because you don’t feel happy. You overanalyse situations, overthink your actions and question yourself ‘why can’t I be happy?’ ‘why can’t I feel normal?’ These questions fill your mind, nagging at you, demanding you to doubt yourself because then it’s won. You can call it a shadow, a dark cloud. I call it a bully. An internal bully who just wants to bring you down, until you believe that you’re not good enough for anyone. You lay in bed and you scroll on social media, your friend going to a Christmas market, a family member going on a Christmas night out and you think to yourself ‘they’re all having fun and what am I doing?’ Another attack from the bully, making you think what you’re doing isn’t okay, you should be having fun like these people. Why aren’t you having fun? You probably don’t deserve it otherwise you would be out doing these exact things, if only someone liked you. These are just few of the other million, racing thoughts that pounds in my head. A constant headache that doesn’t seem to go away no matter how much attention you give it. But ask yourself this, who told you this is what everyone expects from you? That you should be doing these things in order to ‘be happy’. Whatever you’re doing right now, or in a weeks time. It’s okay. There is no right or wrong and if you want to stay in bed, sit in your room, read a book then that’s okay. Nothing should ever interrupt your version of happiness by laying an expectation of what you should do. 

Because if there’s one person that will, it’s the internal bully. And you can’t let it win. Because bullies love sucking out your energy, it feeds on their own ego. Alternatively, find something you love and it doesn’t have to be just going out. Go downstairs, watch a Christmas film, listen to music, talk to a family member. You can do whatever you like as long as it makes you feel calm and doesn’t worsen your mental health. 

So take this as a reminder. To just...

You’re doing amazing. 

Sunday, September 15, 2019

An Update

Dear Darlings, 

I started my blog to help others and talk openly about my struggles, to speak with people going through similar things as me and encouraging them to keep going. The week before my birthday, 5 months ago, I was not feeling my best but I pushed myself to keep working hard, starting my blog and wanting to help others. I subconsciously ignored my own mentality just excusing it off as a bad day, something that everyone has. I couldn’t accept that I was suffering because I’ve always put others first and not myself to avoid what I thought as ‘being a burden’ which was far from true. It wasn’t until a few weeks ago I was at a terrifying place in my life, I was going through one of my severe depressive episodes where I didn’t want to leave the house, talk to anyone or do anything apart from lying in bed staring at the same wall for what seemed like years. I was completely lost, broken in my own thoughts that I couldn’t think straight and told myself there was only one way to solve everything and it wasn’t healthy. There came a point when I felt so low, unable to pick myself up, felt so weak I was going to be admitted to hospital, also something I came close to doing myself when I lost all hope to find the light I needed and wanted again. That’s when I realised it wasn’t just one bad day or a few little ones, my mindset and the prolonged sadness was my depression telling me I am suffering. I didn’t take care of myself, I couldn’t look in the mirror without filling with hatred and disgust, my self harm increased and suicidal thoughts became the forefront of my mind. I was sick, my mind and heart were breaking and I didn’t help myself. I was starting to experience physical pain and symptoms due to stress and tension and having different pain from what I’ve known since my diagnosis of scoliosis. I didn’t think I would be writing another post like this, even writing dear darlings because I couldn’t even see me getting through the next hour let alone getting back into my one love which is writing, I lost interest in everything. 

Looking back at it I have no idea how I pulled myself out of such a dark, negative place and all I can is that I talked about it. I was completely lost, broken in my own thoughts that I couldn’t think straight and told myself there was only one to solve everything and it wasn’t healthy.. I’ve been clean now for 2 weeks, was feeling okay, stable and I had no idea how I pulled myself out of a place I’ve been in so many times before. There was strength inside of me so buried down by hurt and negativity that I was unable to find it for so long and it took that small step to do the most unthinkable for someone with depression. I’ve always been too scared to be happy because I knew it wouldn’t last for me, it never has done for me and I was waiting everyday for something to happen, putting myself down until it did. 

A person who was meant to be there for me, help me, promised to never leave me, did. They left without any warning and it knocked me down ackley to that lonely place. Just as I start to feel able to get through the days I was abandoned by someone who I have came to the realisation was toxic for me, the toughest realisation I’ve came to since my bullying. I couldn’t accept it. I’ve been used the past few weeks, it couldn’t have came at a worse time and it has made me feel so down about myself. I wish that happiness lasted a little longer but surely there’s a plan, that these things are meant to happen because it will make me stronger and I will learn from it. I want to focus on myself and being happy but how can I do that when I have been hurt immensely over and over, one thing happening after another and all I do is be kind to others and help them. It feels so unfair at times, I carry a good heart because that’s how I was raised. But I’ve learnt the hard way that being nice gets you nowhere. I’m the type of person who would rather be hurt and heartbroken by someone but still have them in my life because I’m too scared to be on my own. But sometimes letting them go hurts way less than holding onto a toxic person who makes you feel so crap about yourself. 

I also missed writing during the time I took a break, the distraction of being able to write my every thought down and to know it is small steps to starting my dream writing career. Right now I’m still struggling and I’ve got a long way to go, but I’m trying to get more help, I refuse to give up and I will take one day a time. 

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Monday, June 24, 2019

4 Years After Scoliosis Surgery


4 years ago today I was in theatre having spinal surgery to correct my 85 degree spine. I was full of nerves waiting in hospital preparing for the 10 hour operation; something that was generally life changing and without it I would have been paralysed. I have scoliosis and the procedure consisted of placing 22 screws, 2 titanium rods and 6 ribs removed and it was painful. The worst part being when the nurses had to turn me over every few hours and it was indescribable how much it hurt. I remember thinking I would be pain free after recovery but the truth is, although surgery has been the best thing I’ve ever done and it has changed the pain, I still endure it every day and it can be a struggle still as some weeks can be worse than others where all I can feel is a burning sharp sensation and my back almost feels heavy because that’s when I can feel my rods more. So I have to continue being mindful of my body and aware of my own limitations due to the rods and screws which can cause internal bone bruising from high impact activities and accidents. 

The recovery was not easy but it was absolutely worth it as I wear clothes now without having second thoughts if you could see my uneven shoulders, hips and the hump on my back visible through anything I wore. Because what I got out from it all was a scar, running from my neck down to my lower back and I am so proud of it. It is my favourite thing about myself as it tells the story of a time which affected me physically, mentally and emotionally but something I overcame and which took a lot of strength in me to do so. 

If you don’t know what Scoliosis is then it’s really important that you make yourself aware and check for any signs on yourself, friends or family. Scoliosis is when the spine curves and can twist to a ‘S’ or ‘C’ shape. The twisted vertebrae can pull the ribs around with them, which sometimes causes a lump to form on one’s back or for it to appear rounded. Other signs are uneven hips, waist and one shoulder blade that sticks out more than the other. The spine can curve either to the left or right and can happen in different parts. It may be the chest area which is called ‘thoracic’ scoliosis or it might be in the ‘lower lumbar’ area of the spine. A large thoracic curve can affect how well the lungs work, something that was impacting on my lungs since my spine was starting to crush on them towards the the end. They noticed mine when I was 9 which is considerably a young age to stop as it is typically when a person is between 10-12. I also wore a brace for 4 years for 23 hours a day but unfortunately failed to prevent the curve from increasing. I had idiopathic scoliosis meaning there is no known cause and symptoms included head being slightly off centre, my ribcage is not symmetrical, one hip was more prominent than the other, my clothes didn’t hang properly, one of my shoulder blades stuck out more than the other and I was leaning more on my left side - something I still have now and causes aches.

Everyday I feel blessed that it went successful and I’m okay. 24th June 2015 you hold a very special place in my heart.

Thursday, June 20, 2019

My Music Playlist and It's Therapeutic Effect


A year ago in August I was having the worst day mentally, I was in public and it just suddenly hit me; the shakiness in my hands, the uncontrollable instability in my legs, my heart beating so fast I thought it was going to explode out of my chest and I felt like I was trapped in a tiny box with no holes and I was gasping for air. Every noise, every person seemed to get louder and closer and my mind went into overload, people walking past looking at me whilst I had my head down wanting to scream the suffering away, to them it was just a teenage girl crying. To me I felt like I was going to die. It's a scary realisation how you think everyone knows you're having a panic attack when in reality they don't. The whole point of me saying this is because the only that calmed me down was to put in my earphones and listen to breathin by Ariana Grande, who has always been an inspiration to me. It blocked the world out and I soon forgot about the passing people giving me stares. I started to breathe to the beat of the song and take in every word Ariana was telling me. I thought she was right there, personally guiding me through the attack and reminding me to do exactly what her song title is, breathe. It may sound silly to some people but the moral of this telling is to remind you that whatever it is that calms you down during a panic attack, do it. Whether you're like me and a certain song brings back the numbness feeling and the control you thought you lost for that split second, do it, just keep breathing.

So, I began to wonder about how particular situation has became a temporary solution to my panic attacks and a way to calm me down. I began researching the benefits music has and it's therapeutic effect and I found on the 'Mind' website that..

"Researchers found that music releases dopamine, the feel-good chemical in your brain. It also found that dopamine was up to 9% higher when volunteers listened to music that they enjoyed" 

I thought this statistic was really interesting so I continued to research Dopamine and how it links in with music. Dopamine is one of the brain's neurotransmitters and chemical that ferries information between neurons. It helps regulate movement, attention, learning, and emotional responses. An international team of researchers has found evidence of dopamine in the brain playing a role in the pleasure people feel when they listen to music. In the study, 27 volunteers were given either lovedopa which is a dopamine precursor that raises the levels of the neurotransmitter in the brain, or risperidone which has the opposite effect. The researchers found that those volunteers who received levodopa reported experiencing more pleasure while listening to music than did the placebo group. They suggest their findings indicate tat Dopamine plays a major role in the pleasure sensations that people experience from listening to music.

A Greek philosopher Plato once quoted "music gives wings to mind". Who's the ancient folk tune has developed to lyrics and melody has given life to each emotions of love, laughter, compassion, heroism, wrath, fear, disgust, wonder.

There are many studies that show how music therapy help people with mood disorders, in this one mentioned we can see that music therapy is effect through methods like group therapy. Music promotes healing and helps to ease the body and mind, influencing the physical and emotion health improving quality of life. Based on observations I have looked at, many medical experts have linked music with mental health and well-being. It was found that music is an effective therapy for pain, medicine for the heart, fasten post-stroke recovery, increases immunity, enhances learning and intelligence quotient, improves memory performance, as well as concentration.

As someone who suffers with depression and has done since 13, a psychological illness that causes lack of interest in life and activities that you usually enjoy. Depression can reach people of any age and it is becoming a major concern in our society. Different facts of the music must be considerably taken in recommended by Nilsson, that the type of music used should be between 60-80 beats per minute, non-lyrical and make up of mainly string ensemble. Music has got many different genes, therefore would have a different effect on individual's mood as people relate different to music they hear. Personally when I am sad I chuck on a Spotify playlist consisting of ballads and heartfelt songs, something that will definitely exacerbate my mood. So why do that? Everyone can admit to turning to melancholy music to make us feel better at some point in our lives, and actually it can trigger positive memories that can help to life our mood. An hypothesis from social psychology is that people like to listen to music that mirrors the tone of their current life circumstances, the songs act as a sort of tuning fork for our own situations, and they resonate with us. So it doesn't matter if you enjoy metal, pop or 50's music (like me!) whatever is your preference it will elevate your mood and aid relaxation because it's something you enjoy and you're taking yourself into consideration.
For me, classical music is a huge love of mine and I see it as a winner at helping you focus . Music that has a tempo of 60 bpm increases the efficiency of the brain in processing information. I play it all the time, either softly in the background whilst doing coursework or a situation when I need to calm. Also let's not forget about the social side of music, it can stop you from feeling lonely or isolated as one of the social aspects of music is going to concert, something I recently went to and can tell you firsthand how accurate this is. It connects people as everyone is there for the same reason you are. And lastly, I use music as a motivator when cleaning around the house or studying, I'll gladly stick on a Whitney or Spice girls song and I guarantee it's motivational force gets me straight up and I soon forget about what I'm doing and how absolutely boring it is. You can't go wrong with a bit Wannabe from the spices.

These are a few of my favourite songs I thoroughly enjoy to wind down and relax.

- breathin by Ariana Grande

- Alive by Sia

- You Say by Lauren Daigle

- Scars To Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara

- Is That Alright? by Lady Gaga

- April In Paris by Doris Day

- Run To You by Lea Michelle 

- Speechless by Naomi Scott

- Love is Alive by Lea Michelle 

- Brave by Sara Bareilles 

- How Far I’ll Go by Auli’i Cravalho 

- Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran

- Better Place by Rachel Platten 

- Stand By You by Rachel Platten 

- Don’t Be so Hard on Yourself by Jess Glynne

- This Is Me by Keala Settle 

- Que Sera, Sera by Doris Day 

- Dream a Little Dream of Me by Doris Day

- 2 become 1 by Spice Girls 

- I’m Fine by Jasmine Bade 

- Recovery by James Arthur 

- Rise Up by Andra Day 

- Get Well Soon by Ariana Grande

Tuesday, June 11, 2019

The Reality of Mental Health


When I started this blog I knew one of my goals was to write about mental health in order to help others going through the same thing, because the thought of another person experiencing the feelings I have felt and thinking the most difficult, unbearable thoughts that I have thought for the past three years breaks my heart in a way I can't explain. It's a different heartache I feel when I know someone is struggling and they can't talk because I know exactly how that is and trust me it's draining. Fine became part of my dictionary but with the most opposition meaning behind it and it slowly started becoming my routine and the norm to say that, revolutionising it until I mislead people into believing I was okay, and I really wasn't. But why did I say that when I was far from it? Because this society we live in stigmatises mental health so much when the worst place you could be in is inside your own head, so why doesn't it get the coverage it needs? Yes, depression and anxiety are talked about much more than it used to but people seem to forget about the other mental health conditions people sadly have to go through every day, but it's never talked about because of the negative attitude around it from weak minded people. Whatever you are going through, whatever mental health condition you have, you deserve to have peace and you are so worthy of love.

But this post is the truth about mental health because on our bad days/weeks/months we are made to believe by the demons in our head that we are unworthy of love and happiness. These thoughts have stuck with me, lived inside my mind almost like it's punishing me when I feel happy, and then it knocks me down again. Every second, every minute of every day I must fight back against the darkness that has overtook my thoughts and took advantage of the naivety I have had, even from a young age. I thought the bullying I had to go through was the worst thing ever but it's slowly came to my realisation that nothing else has tormented my every move more than my own thoughts and I very much blame those certain people because you were something that acted upon my journey of self-criticism and played a part on my belief in thinking I was nothing, you used that against me because I was quiet and not like everyone else, knowing perfectly well how much I was going through already from just recently having spine surgery. I never understood why people did this to me and so I blamed myself, punished myself because I strongly believed it was something I was doing wrong. Was it my looks? Was I not pretty enough for them to be seen with? Am I boring? Am I embarrassing? These thoughts causing a whirlwind and interrupting my way of functioning. And since that I don't trust many people at all so I stay quiet in college, I don't speak in class because I'm afraid of it happening again, I believe people see me as fragile and will do exactly the same because "I look like the type of person to do so". This is a thought that has disrupted my coping of getting through my daily life and became a thought I believed in. I can't explain the anxiousness I feel when sat in a classroom, I become so nervous I don't notice the fidgeting I am doing with my fingers or taking my ring on and off, keeping my head down so I avoid any eye contact with the fear that I have had since school, teens. I know what it's like to be used, to feel so lonely when surrounded by a room full of people. So, I isolate myself and then I feel down about being lonely. One week I am okay and the next I don't want to leave the house. The thing is with mental health it can get so confusing and that causes me more anxiety because I don't get why I feel like this and how quickly it can change. 

Last week I didn't want to leave the house, I was too scared to even step out of the front door because I knew I had to smile and act like everything was okay and that was too tiring for me to do. I was so fed up with everything, lost interest in everything once again, stopped caring, wanting to give up as I believed I would never get better and out of this black hole I was suffocating in. Usually I can manage to pick myself back up and get to college but that was nauseating, and I felt I had no strength at all. I wanted to stop writing and that is a very unusual thing for me as that is something I absolutely adore and consider that a distraction, but even that seemed so tiresome and I just didn't want to do anything anymore. Then I started thinking about how much blogging has helped me, how many people I have spoken to who have thanked me for helping them, the opportunity of talking about mental health to a MP that is coming up and the fact I am going to look at universities in a couple weeks' time and I thought no matter how tough things can get, how much the monsters in your head tell you that you have no purpose, you do because you're here, breathing and alive. Surely that's something right? Then I thought to myself about the times when I didn't think I would see out of that day never mind that week, and the breakdowns I have had in the past due to not being able to take anymore. My biggest one left me thinking it was impossible for me to go on and that was 3 years ago. Even 6 months ago I was saying the same thing and I am writing this post. So, Sunday evening I left the house and although it was for a short time I did. I walked along a promenade and it was so relaxing, I was with three of the most important people in my life, my dogs and my mum.

One of the scary things about mental health is you never know who is struggling because it's so hidden, since it's all in the mind and it can be so difficult to explain that. That's why I urge anyone to reach out to those you know and love with a mental health condition and remind them how proud of them you are, tell them they matter. Because even just a quick message can completely change someone's mindset. 

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Monday, June 3, 2019

Reflection on May..and the Spice Girls.


The only way I can describe May as is a roller coaster, full of ups and downs. I started off the week at the hospital after suffering with severe chest pains and numbness down my right arm, so intense and scary that I got checked out. I am very thankful that it was nothing serious and there is a possibility that it was an anxiety attack but with new and severe symptoms, different to what I usually have. It drained me, panicked me and that's why the fact it could have been due to my anxiety didn't even cross my mind. The end of the week I was at a Spice Girls concert on my own with my closest friend and I am still shocked with myself. How everything can change in just a couple of days when you actually put a little belief in yourself and don't let your mental health overrule you is maddening and beyond me. However it was extremely weird to feel so carefree and not have the shakiness in my legs and the pounding of my heart that endures me daily because I took control for once and I want that to last forever, I know it was only one day but it was the happiest few hours that I have felt in the longest time. My mental health conditions and bullies took away everything from me including my happiness and my self belief which I blame for the reasoning of my guiltiness for being truly happy and thinking of myself for once, the strangest feeling.

Overall, it is an absolute dream to say I have seen THE Spice Girls live. I got to sing to Viva Forever and dance to the Lady is a Vamp. My heart warmed at a proposal and my feet couldn't stop at Wannabe. It was truly the best, most special and adoring concert I ever been to and the atmosphere and visuals were the highlights. To see my favourite spice girl which obviously has to be Ginger Spice - of course making a reference to my ginger hair - There were fireworks, butterfly confetti and the most amazing dresses that you could imagine, Geri's being my favourite with the golden crown looking like a queen.

I just want to take a moment to say to myself and everyone who is reading this that no matter what happens in life, no matter who tries to cross you negatively, never let anymore people take away my happiness because I and everyone else deserves to be happy and experience the feeling I felt on that night. Your time and day will come when the weight will be lifted off your shoulders and it doesn't matter how long it lasts, the importance is that it is happening. I'm still learning to allow myself to feel happy and not be so self critical on myself but for now, I achieved something which I can reflect on as a motivator and for once anxiety didn't take over. The thing that got me through was myself, through self talk and self reassurance. I kept saying You will be okay to myself the night before over and over and over again until I started to slowly believe it. Don't get me wrong it was terrifying the thought but when I got there and the nerves calmed down and I started to feel more relaxed as the night went on, it was prove that you can do anything and that anxiety and the overthinking is so much more scary and causes more worry than actually being there.

"Don't let the fear of what could happen make nothing happen" 

I think in that moment I was done being "the girl with anxiety" and I wanted to prove mainly to myself and others that I can do it and I wanted to do it, a rewarding moment to look back on for a lifetime. The truth is anxiety is within you and you are the only one who can fight off that fear because life is too short and I know personally I don't want to look back on my teenage years when I am in my 30's thinking of all the things I wanted to do but didn't because I allowed the fear and anxiety beforehand control me, so this time I took control. I find that physically talking to myself out loud almost like telling myself off (as weird as that may sound!) works for me. Just try it today, take a small step and tell yourself out loud No, I will do it and keep saying it until it makes a difference. By doing this nothing will happen, it's just an illusion and a thought in your head stopping you which is the terrifying thing, anxiety will not hurt you, it will not attack you. Anxiety will easily make you feel trapped or haunted but you have to remember you're always in control, as hard as that may feel. When anxiety becomes cyclic and seemingly out of your control, you have to keep in the back of your mind that realistically it's still just a part of you and will never physically harm you. This right here is the most important realisation that I am slowly beginning to recognise, because it can help shift you from feeling victimised, alone, empty to feeling empowered and strong.

I hope by me sharing this with you and proving to you about a fear off mine that I conquered for the first time will make you feel not so alone and the reassurance that you can do anything you dream of. If you are reading this and you are suffering, please remember that you are strong, you can be happy and will be, and to always keep a lovely smile on your faces! I wish every single of you all the luck in the world with whatever it is you are battling and one day you will tick off that goal of yours that you have kept written in your diary and it will be the best, most rewarding feeling ever. For now take care of yourself and take it easy.

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Wednesday, May 29, 2019

Dogs Are the Only Best Friend You Will Need


One word. Dogs.
I adore them.
When I left school due to bullying and converted to home education, my Cavalier Ruby was by my side all the time. Whether that was when I was doing my school work, she would be sat on my lap. If I was revising in my room at my desk she would lie on my bed and wouldn’t move until I did, it was like she knew what I was feeling in terms of loneliness and didn’t want to leave me. I honestly don’t know what I would have done without her always being there, also I’m not even ashamed to admit it but I used to talk to her and tell her everything because I really did see her as the best friend I always wanted plus she could never tell anyone and she was a really good listener ha! They say dogs also sense when a human is sad and I can definitely back that up. I truly believe she knows when I am having a bad mental day/week because she clings to my side and always makes sure to smother me in kisses when I come down the stairs in the morning. Just that makes me realise I am not alone, because I look at her and she is one of the reasons I keep going every day. And I love everything about her, from the uniqueness in her spotty cavalier coat to the way she knows when it is her bedtime, at 8pm.

 June 1st 2018, the day when we laid eyes on our Coton De Tulear Teddy and we instantly knew there was no chance we were walking out of them doors without him in our arms. He had the most mischievous face we have ever seen especially compared to our Ruby who is the complete opposite. June 5th we brought home and we just fell in love with him more and more as he started to show his personality and grow into the gorgeous (but very naughty!) dog he is now. He completed our family. It’s funny how much they differ from each other but get along so well and how he looks up to Ruby almost like a mother figure. Wherever she goes he follows, whatever she does he has to copy and it really is the most heart-warming thing ever – they have grown to be the best of friends. They both have been my little best friends and I just can’t express how much I love them and would protect them with my whole life.

So as the title says, why are dogs the only best friend you will ever need?
Well for starters they don’t judge and love you unconditionally. You have a best friend for life who wants to protect us from being hurt because they instinctively know when we are vulnerable.

As Doris Day said once “I have found that when you are deeply troubled, there are things you get from the silent devoted companionship of a dog that you can get from no other source”

The soothing sense of unconditional love they give to you and the comfort of knowing someone is always there just from the padding of their feet can make lives tainted by mental health seem just that bit more bearable and a reason to keep going, for the sake of them. I know with my two dogs they are always wanting someone to stroke them or play with, in particular Ruby who loves cuddles and really is like a hot water bottle – like my mum says. It is a sense of calm of that closeness that dogs only want and if you love them and snuggle them then they are always happy.
Statistics show that 74% of pet owners reported mental health improvements from pet ownership. The field of human-animal bond research is dedicated to studying the health benefits of pets and human-animal interaction. Positive interaction is related to the changes in physiological variables in both parties, including a reduction of subjective psychological stress (fear and anxiety) and an increase of Oxycontin levels in the brain. Science demonstrates that these biological responses have measurable clinical effects. Specifically, pets and therapy animals can help alleviate stress, anxiety, depression and feelings of loneliness and social isolation. Additionally helping people suffering manage their long-term mental health conditions. Another study conducted in 2016 explored the role of pets in the social networks of people managing a long-term mental health problem and found that pets provide a sense of security and routine that provided emotional and social support. Studies have always shown that pets are facilitators of getting to know people, friendship, formation and social support networks.
Caring for a pet also gives your day purpose and reward, a sense of achievement. It also helps you feel valuable and needed. It’s a morning motivator as you know there is someone that needs you to look after them and share your routine. So if you haven’t thought about getting a pet, go for it! You won’t ever regret it and it could an answer to improving your mental health and well-being. They really are the most precious things in the world.

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Saturday, May 25, 2019

The Benefits of Reading


I have always enjoyed reading since I was very little, my favourite author being Jacqueline Wilson throughout my childhood. I could sit for hours with a book in my hand, always being either Lily Alone or My Sister Jodie (also can we still talk about how devastating and unexpected that ending was, my 8 year old heart was broken) but since I have been diagnosed with my mental health disorders I have found myself taking it more seriously and not just "paper with words on" I have acknowledged the benefits from it on my mentality.

When reading the article published by In The Book which involves data illustrating how reading to your child has serious financial benefits. They talk about 8 advantages including how reading can rapidly development the child's communication and basic speech skills; cultural understands; higher academic performance and enhanced development of senses.
Did you know 85% of a child's brain evolves fastest up the age of 5 than any other period in their? These are statistics and facts provided by this wonderfully beneficial and informative publisher and taken from the World Almanac and Book of Facts (1998 , 95) for earning levels by education levels.

As I have gotten older I have leaned towards more books suitable for teens and a particular favourite of mine I have read, so many times I have lost count, is All The Bright Places. It is a heartbreaking and contemporary book but most important it incorporates serious themes such as mental health and suicide. Something I think is really considerate and wonderful of the author Jennifer Niven, is she put links to websites for those affected by these topics, the support shown from her is heartwarming. The book itself is so beautifully written, telling the story with alternating perspectives through Finch and Violet. Without spoiling too much all I am going to say is it is not your classic cliche girl meets boy story, it explores their journey of visiting strange places and the bond that you witness growing and eventually become romantically involved, it is simply a blooming and endearing book and I highly recommend it.

Another huge love of mine is the trilogy A Night In With, featuring three of my idols - Audrey Hepburn, Marilyn Monroe and Grace Kelly. The talented author Lucy Holliday writes in a light humoured way and quintessential for a romantic comedy, complimenting the premise of the book. It's bursting with charm and the glitz and glamour of Hollywood that is featured gives these stories a different vibe from any other books I have read. They really are amazing books and ones to add to your reading list - I will also be attaching a document of my must reads to help you calm and take some relaxation time. Lastly, Megan Hess illustration books have become some of my favourites since last year when I got the Coco Chanel book. If my obsession with Chanel wasn't enough I get a book filled with beautiful artwork telling the story of Gabrielle herself.

Reading for me personally is the most calming thing and most important hobby of mine. Being captivated in a book has been shown to reduce your levels of stress. Research by Dr David Lewis showed that reading as little as 6 minutes a day can reduce stress levels by 60% by reducing your heart rate, easing muscle tension and altering your state of mind. That same study showed that reading was better at reducing stress than music, drinking a cup of tea, going for a walk and playing video games. Additionally, people who read fiction have been shown to improve your level of empathy, the ability for you to understand someone else's beliefs, feelings and thoughts. Participating in cognitive actives, such as reading was also shown to slow down memory loss when compared to those who didn't participate in mentally stimulating activities. There are my studies to support reading helping your mentality, including one showing that reading and then talking about what you have read could be beneficial to your mental health and well-being. Bibliotherapy has a profound effect on people suffering with depression, Liverpool Health Inequalities Research Institute examined a two weekly reading group program for people diagnosed with depression over a 12 month period and reported a significant improvement to mental health. Participants reported improved concentration, better emotional understanding, increased self-awareness, and the ability to discuss meaningful issues related to self and being.

Reading has always been known as a source of knowledge of happiness, of pleasure and even moral courage. It has increased in importance of being a need for a conscious effect to conquer the divisive forces. So if you haven't already try reading even for just 10 minutes today and do it for a prolonged amount of time and write down the difference from the start to end. If you dislike reading you can always try again and give it another chance, starting with finding the right book for you because there will be at least one book suitable for your needs. Because it really is one of the most enjoyable activities you can start today.

Reading Recommendations 
  • All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven 
  • A Night in With - Audrey Hepburn/Marilyn Monroe/Grace Kelly by Lucy Holliday 
  • Me Before You by JoJo Moyes 
  • Illustration books by Megan Hess 
  • The Fault in Our Stars by John Green 
  • Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn 
  • Everything, Everything by Nicola Yoon 
  • Girl on The Train by Paula Hawkins  
  • The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins  
  • Faceless by Alyssa Sheinmel 
  • Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell 
  • If I Stay by Gayle Forman 
  • Best of Me by Nicholas Sparks  

Friday, May 17, 2019

Remembering Doris Day


This weeks blog post is dedicated to the late Doris Day, who sadly passed away early hours of Monday morning at the age of 97. A Hollywood legend and one of the worlds iconic American singer, actress and animal welfare activist. I was deeply saddened and my heart hurts to have heard this news as she was one of my idols, someone who I looked up to for the kindness she holds in her heart and the pureness she gave to others. She gave so much to this world and her gentleness will forever be missed, her fearlessness in portraying women's strength will be one to remain memorable for the years to come. .

Doris May Ann Von Kappelhoff was born on April 3rd 1922 in Cincinnati, Ohio. Her work involved music, films and animal advocacy comprises an enduring legacy, her professional singing career beginning at age 15. She was honoured with many awards such as ‘The Presidential Medal of Freedom’ in 2004 and a ‘Grammy for Lifetime Achievement’ in 2008.

Since the 1970’s, Doris Day focused her energies and time on the Doris Day Animal Foundation. Her lifelong compassion for animals compelled her to fight animal testing and to advocate for spay/neuter education and outreach programmes in the U.S. As Doris once said “Dogs are just as important to me as people”   The foundation continues to provide support to smaller rescue organisations nationwide, with a special focus on those assisting senior pets. Doris’ passionate work on animals in need of rescue, veterinary care and adoption will not end. The foundation is committed to continuing this work as a grant giving organisation. Doris’ wishes were that she have no funeral or memorial service and no grave marker.

Thank you for bringing much needed kindness into the world with your beautiful heart, making the most wonderful memories Doris. You will always be that wholesome blonde beauty with a smile that could light up a room. She was anything and everything, sweet and innocent, a loving wife and mother. Doris, I will miss you ever so much and may you rest in love and sunshine.

Que será, será!

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Featured Post


I am so happy to be collaborating with Rae and raising awareness for mental health. Her blog is definitely one to read and it deserves every recognition it gets. She talks about her experience with bipolar disorder, speaking about symptoms to medication.

“It has been a journey to get to a place where I feel I can live life day to day and not fear my emotions. I have learned to embrace the highs and lows, the good and the bad. When I first got my diagnosis, I felt overwhelmed with disgust with myself. But, through therapy, DBT group, medication, and self reflection. I have turned my weakest moments into my strength. I have wrapped myself in an armour of self realisation, self love, self respect. Yes, I can be weak....But those moments of weaknesses are just that, moments. Moments of weakness that turn into my strength. Bipolar is a part of me, but I refused to be defined by it”

Rae was diagnosed with PTSD and Bipolar 2 and is currently taking combined medication of Seroquel and Lithium, helping her to notice a change in herself and feel much more evened out.

“According to the National Institute of Mental Health, Bipolar 2 is defined by a pattern of depressive episodes and hypomanic episodes. I never experienced any full blown mania until my mid-twenties but I did start to experience depressive episodes around age 17. Looking back I did have some manic tendencies from ages 17-22 but nothing compared to what I experience now.....
When I experience mania, I feel a rush. It’s like having a whole body and mind and soul fuzzy feeling. You feel so elated, like you can’t ever feel sad or bad or anything other than happiness. I often feel the urge to spend and often pay little regard to the consequences. The depressive episodes come far more often than the manic episodes. I will get low - so low that the mere thought of getting out of bed or going to work or eating something feels burdensome. I have had moments where I have been so low that I have taken razor blades to my skin and had moments of suicidal ideation” 

Rae, your strength will inspire so many people going through what you are right now. You have such a good heart using your story to help others and that alone is strength in its self. You should be so proud of yourself.

Please can everyone give her blog, specifically this post and give it a read leaving some love on it to show some kindness towards her as she deserves it.

- Aimée Blogging For Profit

Sunday, May 12, 2019

Guest Post by The Mental Health Coach


The Mental Health Coach is one of the freshest mental health and well-being accounts on instagram and having spoken to it’s founder and creator I am super excited to be featuring this account and being part of their journey to raise awareness for some of the biggest issues in the mental health arena. 

As we know mental health affects us all, in a whole manner of different ways. The different topics and areas is wide ranging, fascinating and so topical as we approach Mental Health Awareness Week. What caught my eye on The Mental Health Coach Instagram account was the wide variety of coverage on some hard hitting mental health issues in society. The alignment of creative visuals, quotes and mental health tips creates an engaging and interesting platform that is well worth checking out. 

We spend time training our body in the gym so take the time to visit The Mental Health Coach’s page to train and relax your mind. 

Having met The Mental Health Coach, founder and creator, it’s great to hear about the journey they are on...’We all have mental health, and we should take the time on a daily basis to look after our mental health much like you would with your physical health’.  The page gives a daily dose of inspiration and advice to get your mental health moving in the right direction and I am super excited about what is in store for the future of The Mental Health Coach as a brand. 

Find some examples and links to the posts below. 

Thanks for your time The Mental Health Coach it was great to understand more about your vision and inspiration. Do like, share and comment as I have no doubt this account is one to watch in the mental health game! 

Saturday, May 11, 2019

Setting Goals For Self Development


When setting goals for ourselves I understand that it can be dispiriting and can be overwhelming, especially for someone who suffers with mental health as the feeling of inadequacy and the constant self discrimination if we don’t achieve those goals can subside us from even introducing this importance. But we have to remember that we don’t have to put a barrage of pressure on ourselves, even if it’s just one small goal the achievement at the end is so rewarding and makes you feel good about yourself. Setting goals is so important as it’s a motivation to keep going as it’s the determination in succeeding that pushes you to work harder. Please don’t put yourself down because you didn’t meet someone’s inadequacy version of success, you do whatever you please and if it makes you feel better at the end then it’s all worth it. I myself have written a list over the past two years about things I want to strive towards and improve my self love.

“I want to have more confidence in myself and lead a happier life” 

This particular goal of mine is the most significant one for me because it’s something that I long to have. For years my confidence has deteriorated and I am constantly comparing myself to other people, about how I wanted their “perfect” life. I wish everyday I was happier in myself and I would love to know how it feels not being woken up by the sound of my heart beating so fast the minute I open my eyes, what it’s like to not have an overload of negative thoughts nagging at me the moment I  step foot out of my bed, what it’s like to be wake up and feel happy.

“My dream is to be a journalist, particularly in fashion, but as long as I’m in a writing career I will already feel like I’ve won” 

For years I have dreamed of being a fashion journalist, to be invited to fashion shows and interview celebrities but I’m slowly leaning towards the option of being a journalist for all areas and using my writing platform to help people, as I’m trying to do with this blog. But as long as I’m either head down writing or giving a hand to someone in need I will be eternally happy.

To have a family and get married in the most glamorous way you could ever imagine”

Anyone who knows me will know how much I dream of having a big white wedding wearing the most elegant gown, covered in Swarovski crystals! I’ve always wanted the most dramatic, memorable entrance and feel like a princess. That’s just a bonus but the more important thing is I want to be happy with my own family because the thought of having my own adoring circle around me everyday when I’m older warms my heart and is a few more people to give all your love to and protect them with every ounce of you. I’ve had a list for years, writing down names I love which usually is very unique and not heard of by many! But that’s the thing I like about it, it may sound cheesy but having an unheard name of is a reason for you to be different and stand out because why would you all want to be the same when every name fits different personalities and having uniqueness to your name is already a starter to being your own version that you want to be.

These are just few of the many goals I aspire to be and you should start thinking, if you haven’t already by writing down one or two small things that you could complete in a short amount of time and the rewarding feel you have in your heart overrides any negativity you feel towards it. It’s also a reminder that if we stopped focusing on the pessimistic in our lives and start to work hard to improve our mentality processes then it makes such a difference as we’re converting the importance to what truly matters to us. Prioritise a few goals and take into consideration that you want to set targets that really mean something to you and not just doing it for the sake of it looking good, it has to have a notable desire you want to attain.

If you have some already I would love to know, so please leave a comment or email me with your thoughts about this post and any goals you want to achieve!

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Be kind to yourself, always.

- Aimée Darling

Monday, May 6, 2019

Monday Motivation

♡ Darlings 

it’s a fresh week and a chance to leave anything negative that happened behind. this week remember your mental health is far more important than homework you’re stressing about or what your boss is telling you to do. Go outside, breathe, meditate, do whatever your heart desires in order to keep yourself calm for these next 7 days. take some time for yourself and remember you’re only human, you’re allowed to have bad days and it’s okay not to be okay. 

Perhaps make a list today consisting of the things you want to achieve by the end of this week, so when it comes Sunday you can look back and reflect on it. or even write down positive things you done this week, there’s no such thing as right or wrong or too little. The world is meant to be explored so go out and find something new, discover a different path and always keep following your dreams. Love what you have today and be grateful for it. Remember that you are special, blessed and have a purpose. You are going to do amazing things this week and keep thinking to yourself about all that you are instead of all that you are not. When someone says you can’t do something, do it twice and take pictures to prove them wrong. Don’t let anyone tell you different from what you are capable of. You’re far too smart and amazing to be the only one standing in your way so go out and do something that you will look back on in 10 years and be proud of. 

So take this post as your Monday reminder that you are powerful beyond measures, you are more than capable of pretty much anything you are willing to work for and that you could change your life today. Put yourself in a place where you can only be found somewhere in between inspiring others, working on yourself, dodging negativity and slaying your goals. Magic happens when you do not give up, even though you want to as the universe always falls in love with a stubborn heart. 

Because a beautiful day begins with a beautiful mindset. So when you wake up, take a second to think about what a privilege it is to be simply alive and healthy. The moment we start acting like life is a blessing I assure you it will start to feel like one. 

Be kind to yourself this week. 

- Aimée Darling

Friday, May 3, 2019

Self Care

♡ Darlings,

2 words. self care.
We are all less able to handle the stresses that come our way when we're already depleted by physical and emotional exhaustion. That is why self care is possibly the most important thing you can do to gain your power back. Please set aside time to take care of yourself, whether that’s reading, a pamper or even going to get your nails done. It can be anything you love so remember to make sure you do it with the weekend creeping up. 
We are so overwhelming stressed that we often forget to take an hour or two out of our day focused on our own needs rather than everyone else’s. It plays an important role on loving and feeling good about yourself. It’s a break from stress, gives you ‘me time’ and gives you the soothing feelings you secretly crave. In addition to pampering yourself, more substantial forms of self-care involving healthy lifestyle choices are important, too. The main one being a good sleeping pattern. 

Self care isn’t a reward, it’s a process that we have to keep in routine but we forget about it from the amount of stress we endure on a daily basis, due to mental health. Self care only works when you listen to your body, and do what you want without resistance. Your mind and body are screaming at you in desperation for those much needed alone hours to reflect on yourself and to take your focus off things that are stressing. 

It’s easier said than done so take this as a stepping stone, a learning curve. Start by giving yourself a minute break, 4 times a day and I guarantee you will feel a difference. Even if it’s just a slight one. And most important remember you are not to feel selfish or guilty for taking time to yourself. YOU need it. 


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