Christmas Day + Saying Goodbye To 2020...

I want to wish everyone who reads this the happiest Christmas.  2020 has been a year like no other and as it comes to an end, I want to reflect.  This year has been filled with many ups and downs, goodbyes and tests of my strength. I have lost people, met new people and also felt alone. But while it has been a  very difficult year, not just for me, but for so many, I can honestly say it has opened my eyes to many things and it has taught me a lot. The most important being that nothing is ever certain and we should appreciate what we already have and who is around us. From the moment lockdown was announced and I had to stay inside for weeks, I struggled to find any happiness in my life. Every day I would wake up and struggle to even get out of bed as I felt I had nothing to look forward to, so the internal bully in my mind became louder and stronger. I felt I had hit rock bottom as during those months I was the lowest I had been in a while. Whilst my mental health was suffering, I unfor

Suicide Prevention Month 2020

*tw: suicide* //  This month is National Suicide Prevention Month. A whole month that is dedicated to raising awareness on suicide and to reduce the stigma around a public health issue that is so important. I have spoken a lot about my own experience with my mental health problems so this month is very close to my heart.  In July, I got my first tattoo which was a semi colon. It is a tattoo I have wanted for so long as the meaning behind it is so important to me and I wanted it as a reminder to keep going even on my darkest days.  "A semi colon is used when an author could've chosen to end their sentence, but chose not to" For years I have struggled with suicidal ideation and I have been in really dark places. It's like a huge weight that is holding me down and I struggle to get out from underneath it. Sometimes I can ignore them but other times they will overwhelm me. Most of the time the thoughts will creep up on me and catch me off guard. If I'm crossing the ro

5 Years Post Op ♡

   ♡ 24/6/15 ♡ On this day 5 whole years ago I underwent a major 10 hour spinal surgery to correct my 85 degree curve. 24 screws and 2 titanium rods were placed into my back to fuse the vertebrae and 6 ribs   were removed. Recovery was not easy, it was tough and extremely painful. My life is so different now and I will be forever thankful to my surgeons, the doctors and nurses who helped me learn how to walk again and adjust to a new way of living. 5 years on I still experience pain every day and I will do for the rest of my life but I know my limitations now and although I had to give up my dream of becoming a dancer, I count my blessings as I can walk and be able to do things I never could before. No one tells you how much this takes a toll mentally and the psychological effects of scoliosis. My spine will never be like those who don’t have scoliosis, I will always have my curve but I embrace that. It used to take over my life and although I will always be self conscious of

Audrey Hepburn’s 91st Birthday..

“𝑨𝒔 π’šπ’π’– π’ˆπ’“π’π’˜ 𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒓, π’šπ’π’– π’˜π’Šπ’π’ π’…π’Šπ’”π’„π’π’—π’†π’“ 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 π’šπ’π’– 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 π’•π’˜π’ 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒔, 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 π’‰π’†π’π’‘π’Šπ’π’ˆ π’šπ’π’–π’“π’”π’†π’π’‡, 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒐𝒓 π’‰π’†π’π’‘π’Šπ’π’ˆ 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒔”⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ On this day in 1929, the beautiful Audrey Hepburn was born in Belgium. A talented performer, actress, humanitarian and philanthropist. Audrey spent part of her youth in England at a boarding school. During much of World War II, she studied at the Arnhem Conservatory in the Netherlands. After the Nazis invaded the country, Hepburn and her mother struggled to survive. She reportedly helped the resistance movement by delivering messages, according to The New York Times. After the war, Hepburn continued to pursue an interest in dance. She studied ballet in Amsterdam and then later on in London. In 1948, Hepburn made her stage debut as a chorus girl in the musical ‘ High Button Shoes’ in London. She also played a chorus girl in ‘ Sauce Tartare ’ but was moved

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